Have you made those New Year’s Eve resolutions where you plan to do better with health and nutrition? Work out more, eat better, get to sleep early, etc.? We all have! We make goals and then we fall off the wagon.

I have been so tired since January. All...year...long! I never felt like I would get better. Chronic fatigue, Fibromyalgia, Lyme Disease, Epstein Barr, Low Thyroid Disease. It was a string of illnesses that plagued me all my life.

I tried my best to be strong. I earnestly prayed for total healing. I’ve tried all types of medications, so-called healthy elixirs and whole food diets. Been there and done it all!

Friends on Instagram kept telling me about these products that were helping them with health and well-being. I’m pretty skeptical but after Covid-19 broke-out, I knew it was time to do something to get healthy.

Galatians 6:9 says, “So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.”

It was time. Time to buckle down, get serious, commit to something. God kept nudging me.

Everyone tells you to be who you were created to be. Resist the urge to live a life that is not the one you have been given by God. He created us in our innermost being; knit together in our mother’s wombs. We are fearfully and wonderfully made. ~ Psalm 139

Except, I felt like I could not break free from never feeling well enough to be faithful to who I was truly created to be! How could I be a blessing to others?

Romans 8:19 says, “For all creation is waiting eagerly for that future day when God will reveal who his children really are.”

There is an appointed time where we come into the fullness of the things God has had for us to be and do for Him. My whole life has been one event after another, bringing me to this point in time. He knew I would one day be speaking words of hope and faith to women who needed to hear them. But up until this point, there have been many moments of hardship.

I asked Him, “But how can I keep up? I have no strength.”

He said to me exactly what He said to Paul, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9

We need to have our wits about us these days. We need strength to keep running our race. I believe when I prayed, God answered me. The supplements were an answer He had for over a year but I never gave it a chance.

Sometimes, God will heal in ways that we just don’t understand.

Sometimes, He heals through medicine.

Sometimes, He heals miraculously.

And then sometimes, He uses a sweet friend you’ve never met that lives on the other side of the country to speak the truth to you.

In the last two months of using these products, I have had less pain and cravings, more energy making me able to exercise on my Elliptical for more than 40 minutes, losing 5 pounds! And now I'm helping others. I'm helping them on their wellness journey.

Listen friend, if you have any issues with gut-health or any illnesses, reach out. You never know how God will perform the miracle you’ve been asking Him for.

Rest assured though because you can stand on this promise:

Philippians 1:6, “Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.”


Goodness, gracious. All I hear is how everyone is "over" 2020. How they just want to see this year end. Looking at the social climate, I would have to agree. We're in the last quarter, the home-stretch and the end is in sight! One of the things that I battle with every single day is mindset. I battle with the negativity the media (social or mainstream) spins out of control, striving to keep us in. Do you feel run down by it all as much as I do?

Most of us are struggling. Over the last 30 years of ministry, I have never seen anything like it. Even my dearest friends in the faith that I consider strong in their walk with Christ seem tired.

We say the end is near, but is it?

Let's take a mental health check.

Do you find yourself:

  • Feeling stuck in your spiritual journey with Christ;

  • Living vicariously through other people’s faith;

  • Exhausted and lonely;

  • Allowing frenetic busyness to replace important tasks

  • Thinking everything is crashing in on you

“If things are tough, remember that every flower that ever bloomed had to go through a whole lot of dirt to get there.” ~ Barbara Johnson

It's hard everywhere. Kids homeschooled. Parents juggling work/home life. Pressures abound. Let me describe your typical day: You wake up only to be bombarded by negativity in your social media feeds. The radio is blasting it on the way to the kid’s school drop-off line. You’re waiting at the grocery store checkout or doctor’s office and it’s all over the TV. You simply cannot escape it.

Except, I’m here to tell you, you can. My daily affirmation has been, “I shall not be moved.” Here’s how I’m using it in my own life:

I’ve begun something called the “Daily Office”. It’s the practice of fixed-hour prayer time described by Peter Scazzero in his 40-Day, "Emotionally Healthy Spirituality Day By Day”. Think of it like this: you have an actual office, you sit at your desk and take time to be still. I’m devoting three moments in my day; First thing in the morning, afternoon and bedtime to just being still and listen.

I’m easily distracted by my wandering mind so I choose some ambient noise on YouTube like a crackling fire and thunderstorm sounds to keep me focused on listening.

After a bit of silence and stillness, I’ll listen in on a prayer call with some amazing women prayer-warriors. Then, I’ll spend a little bit of time in scripture and devotional reading, writing anything down that comes to mind.

I’ll follow these steps during my afternoon and bedtime Daily Office times as well. Developing a habit where you center yourself around God and learn how to "pray without ceasing" can be tough but once it’s solidified in your day, you will see what an impact it will have on your mood and mindset. Think of it like eating your three meals. If you go all day without nourishment, you will feel off. Your Daily Office time doesn’t have to be a lengthy period. Do whatever you feel is necessary to focus on what’s important. Then schedule it in and commit to keeping your appointments with God.

“When we face an impossible situation, all self-reliance and self-confidence must melt away; we must become totally dependent on Him for the resources.” ~ Anne Graham Lotz

A fellow blogger friend recently posted some great ideas that I have taken to heart.  I am committing to not opening up my social media first thing after opening my eyes. But boy, is it hard.

I am choosing to wait in the silence and listen.

I am spending the first hour with God. Then taking the time in the afternoon to reflect. My bedtime is an important part of my routine where I will choose to not fall asleep consuming garbage. I choose to be consumed by the All-consuming Fire.

I realize that everything I write flows out of my faith in Jesus Christ. Without staying in communion with the Father through these types of habits, I’m afraid we won’t last the onslaught for our attention.

Some scriptures that I have been meditating on to help me stay steadfast are:

Psalms 16:8 - ”I have set the Lord always before me; Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.”

Acts 2:25, ”For David says concerning Him: ‘I foresaw the Lord always before my face, For He is at my right hand, that I may not be shaken.”

Psalms 112:6-7, ”Surely he shall not be moved for ever: the righteous shall be in everlasting remembrance. He shall not be afraid of evil tidings: his heart is fixed, trusting in the Lord.”

Psalms 15, ”Who may worship in your sanctuary, Lord? Who may enter your presence on your holy hill? Those who lead blameless lives and do what is right, speaking the truth from sincere hearts. Those who refuse to gossip or harm their neighbors or speak evil of their friends. Those who despise flagrant sinners, and honor the faithful followers of the Lord, and keep their promises even when it hurts. Those who lend money without charging interest, and who cannot be bribed to lie about the innocent. Such people will never be moved.”

Psalms 62:6-7, ”He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be moved. In God is my salvation and my glory; The rock of my strength, And my refuge, is in God.”

So, will you join me in making small changes to resist the negativity that surrounds us?  Will you choose to not be moved during these very turbulent times? 

A prayer for you friend,

“Dear Lord, even when I am discouraged, even when my heart is heavy, I will earnestly seek You. You know the very intentions of my thoughts and heart. I will not be moved.”

Did you ever wonder, “How is this happening to me?” This was my thought as I waited for the ER doctor to come in and give us a diagnosis to our 16-year-old daughter. It was a waiting game that felt like forever.

Our daughter is turning 21 next week. I truly don’t know where the time went. I remember complaining about how difficult raising three children, four and under, to all my friends in the same season of life. It has been one crazy ride with this wild girl of mine! Before I even had children, I used to pray that when I had a daughter, I wanted her to be strong and independent. I really don’t know what I was thinking when I prayed that but boy did I get what I asked for!

A little less than a year before I got pregnant with Ellie, I had a miscarriage. My mother passed away from cancer when I was only two months pregnant with her. So needless to say, I really held onto hope for this child. Little did I know that I would wind up having my best friend for life. She was a beautiful baby. Everyone said so and people would actually stop me in public to comment how she looked like a precious moments doll.

When she was about 4-5 years old, I noticed she had a love for drawing. As soon as she picked up a pencil or crayon, that was it! She was busy for hours. By the time she was seven, I knew she had talent. My sister told me she was destined for greatness. She believed it so much she had Ellie paint her a still life when she was young. Then she could say she knew her back when Ellie wasn’t famous. I took her to painting classes at seven years old and the teacher there recommended a school that could teach her at a higher level because she saw the same thing in her.

Life came to an abrupt halt when Ellie was diagnosed with Amblyopia. During a routine eye exam at school, the nurse discovered that Ellie could not see well out of one eye. She had managed to trick everyone at the eye exams and cheat to use the good eye. She thought she would get into trouble if she couldn’t tell the woman the correct letters. I was devastated to say the least. I questioned God, “Why would you give her this amazing talent if she could not use it?”

We took the advice of doctors and I home-schooled her along with her younger brothers for a year so that she could patch the good eye for nine hours a day. It meant she would not be able to see clearly for the whole day and would need the three hour window to do school-work. It was supposed to strengthen the weak eye, but unfortunately did not work. After the year was up, there was no change and back she went to regular school.

Our daughter has had to struggle with this all these years but did it stop her from pursuing her passion? Absolutely not! She went on to gain admission into the top performing arts high school, LaGuardia in Manhattan for Fine Arts. It was quite a triumph! She also went on to gain admission into her top college choices including where she accepted their full scholarship program, Parsons, The New School, Manhattan.

Now I know how it sounds. It sounds like I’m bragging. Well, I am! But, I brag not just to brag about her accomplishments but to brag on God. If it wasn’t for Ellie’s faith in Him, I am sure she would not be where she is today.

So what about this brain surgery you ask? Well, I’ll let her answer that question herself in her blog post from mynamesellie.com below:

"It is becoming rather than being."

I used to think that everyone had one defining moment in their lives. This moment helped you find out who you are or who you are supposed to be. From that discovery you develop that single identity as your life unfolds. I remember hearing people share stories of testimonials that inspired their artwork that were unique. I had trouble deciphering what my story was. As I matured, I delved into learning about the aspects of myself that gave me my individual sense of self. I understood that one specific moment or characteristic does not define a person. It was only until after I came to that realization that I experienced a big moment in my own life. In summer, 2014, I had been experiencing fainting, dizzy spells, and blurred vision which made creating art extremely painstakingly difficult. I was under the impression that it was chronic migraines and tried to move on. During a vacation that same year, I was involved in a severe bicycle accident. I was taken to the hospital where I was told that I had a concussion and needed a CT scan. I was visited by the neurosurgeon and was shown images of my brain. One area of my brain was clearly larger than it should be. I was diagnosed with a condition called hydrocephalus. As a result I’d need a shunt placed in my head that would connect to my stomach that would drain the fluid properly. I would live with that for the rest of my life and constantly risk infection. A few weeks later after multiple visits to the neurosurgeon back home in New York City, I was told I in fact needed brain surgery. Throughout this entire ordeal I was as cool as a cucumber. I felt as though I was strong enough to get through this and, if I did, the art that would result from the experience would be my salvation and my reward. I was motivated to never stop creating because I knew what it had felt like to almost lose the ability to. I sometimes believe that what is in your heart is shown through your hands. Whatever you do with your hands reveals the desires of your heart, both good and bad. I try to remain aware of my hands so that I am truly displaying the contents of my heart, with a little bit of help from my brain."

Of course she made it through the surgery perfectly. Not only that, but she did not need a shunt. The brain surgeon was the top Neurosurgeon in Cornell University in Manhattan. He was the only one that could perform this type of surgery that punctured a ventricle to allow the fluid to flow freely and not keep building up. It was all a miracle and we trace God’s hand all along the way. My motto is, “We all have a choice in how you handle what life throws at you.” I know it sounds trite but you really can make lemonade from the lemons in life. I’m fascinated by women’s stories of triumph over difficulties life hands us. They are women that have shaped my life and this is where I get to celebrate them. I celebrate my amazing daughter, Ellie’s life. Happy 23rd Birthday my girl!

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